[Someone please stop people from sticking their fingers into Keykids' memories.]
Thanks. [He smiles faintly.] Do you think that would work with Kairi, if we tried hard enough? We could go back, but...what if being out there is what changes your memories after a while?
[It's like sticking your fingers in an electrical socket, only instead of electrocution you get existential crises, partial-to-complete amnesia and a whole heap of angst.
Sora makes a small, unhappy groan from his end of the line.]
I tried everything I could think of, I even showed her she could summon her Keyblade and it didn't do any good. I think it just made her more confused, and I don't want to hurt her by pushing to hard... or push her too hard make her think I'm some kinda weird bully with a creepy agenda.
[He pauses for a long while, not entirely sure how to ask. It's kind of a touchy subject, and he should know the answer, considering all that Roxas has shared with him, both here and in the dream world.]
You know what... it doesn't matter. I'm just thinking out loud.
[There's a shorter this pause as he carefully works out the wording of this next part in his head. This is sensitive stuff. Really sensitive. But he has to know.]
When you forgot, and Axel was telling you all this stuff about you that you didn't remember... what did that feel like?
[That's what Sora's afraid of; he knows Kairi's confused and scared right now without her memories and he wants nothing more than to help her get them back, to set things right again for them.
But now, listening to Roxas talk, he feels that unease creeping up on him again, but on the other boy's behalf this time.]
[Sora's quiet for a long while, listening to Roxas talk and it makes his heart hurt. He can't imagine how it would feel to have Kairi and Riku torn away from him, and for him to not even know that it had happened.
He wishes they were having this conversation face to face.]
You didn't forget them Roxas. They were taken from you. You know Axel doesn't blame you for that.
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Thanks. [He smiles faintly.] Do you think that would work with Kairi, if we tried hard enough? We could go back, but...what if being out there is what changes your memories after a while?
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It's like sticking your fingers in an electrical socket, only instead of electrocution you get existential crises, partial-to-complete amnesia and a whole heap of angst.Sora makes a small, unhappy groan from his end of the line.]
I tried everything I could think of, I even showed her she could summon her Keyblade and it didn't do any good. I think it just made her more confused, and I don't want to hurt her by pushing to hard... or push her too hard make her think I'm some kinda weird bully with a creepy agenda.
[But he can't help but add:]
I don't want to risk losing any more of her.
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[Every piece of a precious friend who's lost...is too much to lose.]
What if...what if she just needs to hear from more of us? I may not have known her as long as you, but maybe that would make a difference.
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[At least that’s what he hopes. He doesn’t have even the slightest idea what will help or hurt and it’s definitely frustrating.]
Hey, Roxas?
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[He really, really does. Kairi might be a new friend, but he doesn't want to lose any more friends. And he doesn't want to see Sora hurting.]
Yeah, what?
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[He pauses for a long while, not entirely sure how to ask. It's kind of a touchy subject, and he should know the answer, considering all that Roxas has shared with him, both here and in the dream world.]
You know what... it doesn't matter. I'm just thinking out loud.
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But it's okay. He's already shown Sora everything he felt then. He can handle it.]
No, go ahead. Ask what you were going to ask.
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[There's a shorter this pause as he carefully works out the wording of this next part in his head. This is sensitive stuff. Really sensitive. But he has to know.]
When you forgot, and Axel was telling you all this stuff about you that you didn't remember... what did that feel like?
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I was confused. Scared, some, because everything was getting bizarre and I didn't know why.
[He didn't know it was all a lie.]
But...that wasn't the hard part. Forgetting's easy. You don't even know it's happened.
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But now, listening to Roxas talk, he feels that unease creeping up on him again, but on the other boy's behalf this time.]
What was the hard part?
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[That he had never had anything to begin with.]
I forgot my best friends. How does that even happen?
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He wishes they were having this conversation face to face.]
You didn't forget them Roxas. They were taken from you. You know Axel doesn't blame you for that.
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[But does it make it any better? Maybe. Maybe not. He honestly doesn't know.]
But I forgot her, too. [He bows his head for a moment, taking a breath.] Axel found a journal he wrote, about...our friend. Xion.
[He says the word carefully, like he's not even sure he's pronouncing it right.]