I guess... you can't really miss someone if you don't know they're missing. Like... how I would miss you now if you went back to sleep, but I couldn't miss you before I knew about you.
[He scratches the back of his neck then ponders over the next part.]
I can't imagine what it musta been like having nothing. As far back as I can remember, Riku's always been there, and my mom and dad... and not being able to feel- gee, you couldn't even be sad that you couldn't feel because you couldn't feel sad about it! That's wild.
[He smiles sadly.]
So what was the first thing you remembered feeling?
[What would it have been like, to remember a friend but not feel friendship? It's not something he wants to think about, so Roxas pushes the thought away and smiles a little at Sora instead. He'd miss him, too.]
The first thing? [He thinks about it for a few seconds.] ...confused, if that counts. That whole first week or so was really hazy—my number and my name were the only things I could hold onto. I barely knew who the others were.
[He knows Sora can't recall this particular piece of his memories. It was too indistinct to share. Had the other Organization members felt the same, when they first became Nobodies, or had it been his total separation from his previous self that affected Roxas so badly? He's never asked. It's such a personal question, he's not sure he ever would.]
But, if I think about the first feeling that was really real, and really mine...it might have been one of the first days me and Axel went up to the clock tower and had ice cream. It was the first time I ever laughed. It was nice.
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[He scratches the back of his neck then ponders over the next part.]
I can't imagine what it musta been like having nothing. As far back as I can remember, Riku's always been there, and my mom and dad... and not being able to feel- gee, you couldn't even be sad that you couldn't feel because you couldn't feel sad about it! That's wild.
[He smiles sadly.]
So what was the first thing you remembered feeling?
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The first thing? [He thinks about it for a few seconds.] ...confused, if that counts. That whole first week or so was really hazy—my number and my name were the only things I could hold onto. I barely knew who the others were.
[He knows Sora can't recall this particular piece of his memories. It was too indistinct to share. Had the other Organization members felt the same, when they first became Nobodies, or had it been his total separation from his previous self that affected Roxas so badly? He's never asked. It's such a personal question, he's not sure he ever would.]
But, if I think about the first feeling that was really real, and really mine...it might have been one of the first days me and Axel went up to the clock tower and had ice cream. It was the first time I ever laughed. It was nice.