pullsheavendown | ♚ IC Contact for Sirens' Pull ♚

Well...I'll have to ask Xion. That might be too—

[pause]

Did Riku...tell you about her yet?

No, and I'm not gonna let anyone tell me about her until she's ready. I know her name and that she's important to you which is all I need to know right now.

It isn't just about her. It's about you, too. You...have the right to know.

Hm, I kinda figured that and I gotta admit that I'm confused beyond belief and I wanna know but I've gone all this time without knowing, a little longer isn't gonna make it worse. We've got time to take it at whatever pace we want.

You don't understand. No one could have told you about her before because we didn't remember her.

I do understand. There are memories...ones I can't get back of my time in Castle Oblivion. Sure I can sit here and wish that things had been different, people and events remembered but I'm not gonna. I'm gonna keep moving forward, make things better and do what I can to make situations easier.

Right now you all remember her and she's here so I think you should all enjoy it. I get it, she's curious but doesn't wanna see me yet - worrying over why isn't gonna get me anywhere. You guys are so concerned about what to tell me that it's bugging you, so I'm saying don't worry about it. Stuff happened while I was asleep, it's not like I expected the worlds and people to not continue on without me.

Whatever happened it's not like I'm gonna be mad or anything.

It's up to you. I just wish someone had told me before it was too late.

I don't like being in the dark but this isn't just about me and it's not harming anyone so my curiosity can wait.

[Not so sure about that, but] I'll ask them about the boat thing.

Yeah.

[A pause.]

I'm glad you two get to see each other again.

Me too.

[And he's sounding just a little choked up now.]

[lakjdf Don't cry on him Roxas.]

Um...you okay?

[This is so weird, to be having this conversation with the one person Roxas cannot communicate with well. But maybe that's what makes it easier.]

I have to be, for her. Or she'll just blame herself. It was never her fault.

[Context, what is that.]

Well I know it's not gonna help if you try to shoulder the blame by yourself. Passing it off as someone else's entirely is cowardly and not gonna solve either of your guilt. It's a heavy burden and nothing someone should deal with alone so it should be shared until you both feel better. I mean, you're friends and you want to help each other out while making sure the other doesn't suffer alone. Sure it's hard to spread something painful like guilt around but....

It's like me and Riku. He's trying to make up for what he's done that I think he'll do anything - even things I don't want him to. Dangerous things that mean that I might lose him again. I don't wanna see him fall like that again and if he did because of his own guilt, well that would hurt worse than him sharing it with me.

It's really not like you and Riku. You weren't there. You don't know what happened.

Don't...don't worry about it. Axel and I will take care of her.

Guess I can't really compare it when I don't know what happened, but can you compare it either?

I know you will, never doubted that for a minute.

That's why I said to ask him. But I know it's not the same.

[This is where he'd normally get exasperated at Sora's confidence in something he knows nothing about, but he just can't work up that energy now.]

No, it's not the same which is why I haven't bothered. Knowing something through someone else...it's like seeing it through their eyes. I have to rely on Namine, Joe and Riku for my time spent in Castle Oblivion - it's difficult...and frustrating because it's only seeing part of the picture, the part they saw and what should be mine is just blank.

If knowing about you through the eyes of others was the only option I'd do it, but it's not in this place so....I wanna know you through my own experiences. I'm never gonna turn away if you've got questions or think of you as an enemy because of stuff you might've done in the past or even demand anything from you so whatever the next step is...I'm waiting for you to make it. I'll reach out every now and then just to lend a helping hand but whether anything comes of it is up to you.

I know what I want us to be but I can't make that choice for both of us.

Yeah. I know how that feels.

This isn't about me anymore. Maybe it never was. I have to make up for what I did to her. That comes first now.

Right, and if there's anything I can do to help just ask.

Uh-huh.

[Yeah, that'll happen.]

[It will. Just you watch. Because when you put someone above your own needs that's totally what happens. Also he's determined to not end these conversations without being nice about it.]

Right, I'm almost home now. I gotta walk Hikaru and hit the diner for some waffles so have a great day!

[You underestimate the power of Nobody stubbornness.]

...sure.

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